My Shout out….

Im happy wit my work. I cant believe how much i love teaching (walau sometimes my students suka naikkan darah ku)… hehe…. I feel stress free while teaching especially when my students actually understand what i teach… hehehe…. My lesson plan always ready on time and semua pengajaran ku berjalan lancar…. next week exam weeks… so i just pray for the best for my students…. exam or test result for me, reflects my teaching… if they can pass the exam, it means my teaching dapat di terima… but if most of them lingkup… i need to evaluate my teaching strategies… till then… i just have to wait and see…

What else…. ohh i miss Arni already…. hope she’s doing fine.. Just now I was spring cleaning my room…. then i stop and browsing a box… which was the things from durham… the things from the slumber parties we had… I read back all the cards and look at the gift… suddenly tears started to fall…. I was actually crying an laughing at the same time… I remembered all the things we did… me, arni, nurul, dijah, zatul, min, kam, kak nur. that was the days…. I cant believe thinking about the happy times makes me cry… how i miss them…. how i miss all the activities and the food!!…. Perasaan rindu makin menebal….. then i even miss lutfi, mahadi, amalina, shifa and yusran and the gelagat of our neighbour… hehehe…miss the Durham Amazing Race.. seriuosly I even miss lepaking with lutfi and talk about stuff… his advice on the guy side point of view… hehehe….. DUrham sure gave me all the sweet and bitter memories that I will never forget… hehehe… One day im gonna see them again… thats my promise… One day… InsyaAllah…

Hmmm what else… ohh something happen…. Im hurting… in a way that cause tears to fall….. mungkin kesabaran ku semakin menghilang… mungkin ketabahan ku dalam menjalani cerita aku dan dia semakin luntur…. Bila ku fikirkan… mengapa aku sanggup di layan sedemikian rupa?… Mengapa aku mesti merasa perit yang begitu mendalam?…. Aku sendiri semakin keliru…. selalu Arni and nurul akan menasihatkan aku….dulu lutfi selalu jugak memberikan nasihat yang selalunya masuk jugak ke kepala otak aku nie… but now… even nurul dont know what to do… apatah lagi aku?….. sigh… mungkinkah kesabaran ku dan ketabahan ku akan berakhir.. after all these years… is this it?… I still dont know…

Anyway before signing off…. heres the song of my life at the moment….

Siti Nurhaliza - Kembalikan Indah

Setitis air mata
Gugur ke bumi
Menjadi lautan kaca
Harus ku renangi

Dimana kau menghilang
Kasihku rindu
Biar apapun menghalang
Janganlah kau membisu

chorus
Inikah cinta menghiris jiwa
Kau biar hidupku jadi melara
Sucikah cinta kau cemar janjinya
Bertarung aku dengan sengsara

 
Tak rela ku bersedih
Dihimpit duka
Berkaca hati merintih
Pecah tak ku duga

Ingin ku meluahkan
Segugus rindu
Kembalilah keindahan
Cahaya dihatiku

Ulang chorus

Oh…kasih terbayang kenangan lalu
Oh…bersamamu
Berjanji setia tak ingin berpisah
Berdua kan selamanya…..

SO thats about it… will blog again soon…… Astalavista…

With lots of love, hugs and kisses:

Zeah Brunei…

Its been a while not blogging… there are so many reason why…. but the main reason is, internet at my house selalu lagging due to the bad telephone wiring!!!… anyway… a lot telah terjadi and somehow i have the mood kan blog.. so here we go…

Life as a Teacher….

Its been almost two month of teaching… hehehe.. yeah im a teacher now and a primary school teacher…. I am so strict in class.. YEAH RIGHT!!!!….. okay at this moment… im trying too… hehe…. well all my pupils are cute and naughty… some even remind me of myself back when I was in primary school.. the naughty bits… hehehe…. hopefully not that bad ehh… I have a lot of name in school called by the pupils, Teacher Zeah, Teacher Zee, Teacher Ah, Teacher English, Teacher 5B and the one that I remember the most, Teacher yg marah sekajap…. I wonder why did they called me that…. hehehehe…. Anyway…The first day in school, I was quiet… pendiam, ayu, pemalu dan yang seangkatan dengannya…. SOmehow terbatas wah ke’gila’an ku ahh…. hehehe…. so one day masa sports day, ke’gila’an ku terkeluar and some of the teachers were surprised!!… they didnt expect i was like that…. hehehe…. then masa Pertandingan Tarian sekolah2…. another teacher didnt expect me to be so crazy and loud!!…. hahahaha….. well somehow in school… something just stop me becoming me crazy self!!!…. Thats why everyday during break i need to talk to nurul juat to let out the stress… haha… kes aku tak biasa dengan keadaan yang berdiam diri…. hahahaha…. this is the first time i feel so hard to blend in… hahaha well just have to wait for the right time….

Life as Zeah (not the teacher)

So far so good…. at least the bad news about mylife is still in the dark, but soon it wil be out in the open. How can I handle it until now? Hanya Allah yang tahu betapa hati ku hancur dan kekuatan yang ada untuk menahannya aku sendiri kurang pasti dari mana datangnya…. Just wait and see how long I can keep this up…

Love life…. nothing much to say… hahahaha…. all i know… its going just fine…

Life at home…

Ive been watching this reality show the biggest loser.. i was inspired and amazed but then still eat a lot… hehhe… at first hanya aku yang rajin wacthing this show, then my sisters pun join in… then today, we all decide to make the biggest loser Game… haha.. kakak aku, aku dan adik aku… yeah and the challenge start today and we will have a weigh in every week. This will game will take place for a month… then the prize…. the winner of the biggest loser game will win money…. well that money bukan sponsor… tapi duit yg kalah… each of us yang kalah will give $250 each…. hehehehe….. the biggest loser dapat $250,000…kami $500 je lah… tu pun kira okay apa… so starting from today… I will do what ive learned form the biggest loser… heheheh…. I know i can win sebab im the biggest…. hahaha…. kakak dan adik aku dah lah kecik… nak lawan dengan yg besar…. but then…. the percentage of weight loss mau tau kan… so cant wait to see the fisrt weigh in….. hehehehe…

Other than that….. aku sibuk dengan kerja-kerja sekolah aku… murid-murid aku suka sangat guna buku baru… its like mid year already and still buku baru… geramnya aku… sabar je lah…. hehehehe…..