My Shout out….

Hmm…. at this moment..im living in a lot of situation… all at once and somehow I keep on telling myself… can I cope up with this?……

SITUASI SATU…

This situation is on top of all the situation that ive been going through…. Something that only a few friends knows about it. How am I gonna say this?.. Ive been in this situation for quite sometimes now… its been killing me slowly deep down inside and for the past month ive been gathering strength to face what will come in the future… from this day, its gonna be soon…. I do hope that it will come out just fine and in a positive way… but if does end in a negative way and the way that I dont want it to end… I do hope by that time I already gathered enough strenght…. So till then.. I just hope for the best… To those yg membaca then confuse… Im sorry… It will not be confusing to those who knew… for the rest…. just wait.. one day you will know…

SITUASI 2

Today is 6th September…. a date that i will always remember and yet a date that he will not realize… I am in a relationship… i do care for him and even love him… thats why I have the patience on what ever he did… tapi sampai bila….. im not sure.  Im only human… tahap kesabaran ku bukannya tinggi melangit…. hehehe… well… let me just cerita sedikit situasi relationship ku…. then you can decide sama ada aku yg bodoh sebab diri aku sendiri or is it that im stupid because of love?.. hehehe…. Our relationship masih setahun jagung… well its juat more than a year….. When I was in Uk… mungkin aku faham situasi kami yang in a long distance relationship… When im back in Brunei, I was hoping it would change but unfortunately it stays the same…. jarang on the phone… even sms… well maybe he is buzy… so sometimes i dont mind… but then.. semakin ku biarkan… it gets worst… berjumpa pun jarang… now its like 2 months inda jumpa and sms pun dapat dikira tuk bulan ani… 2 kali… hehehe… he did call me last week,,, then now for a week ia hilang… or nda ada berita… when I asked him kalau2 ia ada orang lain… he said no… I did tell him how i feel (Thru sms dan bukan bersua muka atau bertelipon)…. he did response a bit but then back to normal… aku.. kekadang memanglah sakit hati,,, tapi ku diamkan saja…. aku hanya seorang perempuan… kalau aku bertindak terlebih… nanti dia pulak yg terkejut beruk… hehe… and yet my feelings form him still going strong and i just dont know why…. So now, im just flowing with the flow and if this continue then i will have to make a dicision….. hingga to the point where I know i love him but I have to let him go…..

SITUASI 3

At this moment aku tengok telefilem kat tv3… boleh nangis aku dibuatnya… well aku dah nangis pun… sedih gila…. aku pun sukalah terimagine yg aku dalam situasi dia… hehehe… comfirm aku akan jadik macam dia… kesabaran yang tinggi tapi bila sampai waktunya… menangis jua akhirnya…. hehehehe..

SITUASI 4

Im missing friends in DURHAM…missing berbuka sesama… masak untuk buat rumah terbuka sesama…missing masakan dijah…. rindu dengan UNO night… Scrabble night… CLUEDO night… and even star game night…..pastu aku ingat pulak CLUEDO yang telah diubah suai mengikut situasi bowburn… hahahaha…. cukup dengan nama pembunuhnya dan tempat2 mereka yang di bunuh… hehehe…… then aku jugak dah rajin dah tengok clip raya diperantauan and the amazing race… those good old days…. damn these tears keep on running down my cheek… habis basah lah laptop aku… hehehehe…

SITUASI 5

Dah tiada situasi dah… maybe situasi yg terakhir ni melibatkan semua situasi yang diatas…. semua dah bercampur baur kekadang semua perasaan ada…. tapi dalam kesemua situasi ini… aku masih mampu tersenyum dan tertawa… segala dugaan diterima dengan senyuman walaupun kekadang gugur jua airmata walau pun aku senyum… overall…i am happy always… kata orang disetiap kedukaan pasti terselit kebahagian,,,,, and I believe that… sebab aku bahagia walau dalam kedukaan… is that logic?.. masuk akal ke?.. hehehe..

SITUASI 6

Aku rasa aku dah semakin melalut dah nie… semakin mengelirukan diri sendiri… hehehe.. so i guess i better stop now… hehehe.. before i go… soundtrack of the day….

Lirik Lagu Lyla Bernafas Tanpamu

mungkin kau bertanya-tanya
arti perhatianku terhadapmu
pasti kau menerka-nerka
apa yang tersirat dalam gerakku

aku lah serpihan kisah masa lalumu
yang sekedar ingin tau keadaan mu

Reff:
tak pernah aku bermaksud mengusikmu
mengganggu setiap ketentraman hidupmu
hanya tak mudah bagiku lupakan mu
dan pergi menjauh

beri sedikit waktu
agar ku terbiasa
bernafas tanpamu
ooooohhh…

hoooo…hooo….2x

teruntuk dirimu
dengarkan lah…

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