My Shout out….

Im happy wit my work. I cant believe how much i love teaching (walau sometimes my students suka naikkan darah ku)… hehe…. I feel stress free while teaching especially when my students actually understand what i teach… hehehe…. My lesson plan always ready on time and semua pengajaran ku berjalan lancar…. next week exam weeks… so i just pray for the best for my students…. exam or test result for me, reflects my teaching… if they can pass the exam, it means my teaching dapat di terima… but if most of them lingkup… i need to evaluate my teaching strategies… till then… i just have to wait and see…

 

What else…. ohh i miss Arni already…. hope she’s doing fine.. Just now I was spring cleaning my room…. then i stop and browsing a box… which was the things from durham… the things from the slumber parties we had… I read back all the cards and look at the gift… suddenly tears started to fall…. I was actually crying an laughing at the same time… I remembered all the things we did… me, arni, nurul, dijah, zatul, min, kam, kak nur. that was the days…. I cant believe thinking about the happy times makes me cry… how i miss them…. how i miss all the activities and the food!!…. Perasaan rindu makin menebal….. then i even miss lutfi, mahadi, amalina, shifa and yusran and the gelagat of our neighbour… hehehe…miss the Durham Amazing Race.. seriuosly I even miss lepaking with lutfi and talk about stuff… his advice on the guy side point of view… hehehe….. DUrham sure gave me all the sweet and bitter memories that I will never forget… hehehe… One day im gonna see them again… thats my promise… One day… InsyaAllah…

Hmmm what else… ohh something happen…. Im hurting… in a way that cause tears to fall….. mungkin kesabaran ku semakin menghilang… mungkin ketabahan ku dalam menjalani cerita aku dan dia semakin luntur…. Bila ku fikirkan… mengapa aku sanggup di layan sedemikian rupa?… Mengapa aku mesti merasa perit yang begitu mendalam?…. Aku sendiri semakin keliru…. selalu Arni and nurul akan menasihatkan aku….dulu lutfi selalu jugak memberikan nasihat yang selalunya masuk jugak ke kepala otak aku nie… but now… even nurul dont know what to do… apatah lagi aku?….. sigh… mungkinkah kesabaran ku dan ketabahan ku akan berakhir.. after all these years… is this it?… I still dont know…

Anyway before signing off…. heres the song of my life at the moment….

Siti Nurhaliza - Kembalikan Indah

Setitis air mata
Gugur ke bumi
Menjadi lautan kaca
Harus ku renangi

Dimana kau menghilang
Kasihku rindu
Biar apapun menghalang
Janganlah kau membisu

chorus
Inikah cinta menghiris jiwa
Kau biar hidupku jadi melara
Sucikah cinta kau cemar janjinya
Bertarung aku dengan sengsara

 
Tak rela ku bersedih
Dihimpit duka
Berkaca hati merintih
Pecah tak ku duga

Ingin ku meluahkan
Segugus rindu
Kembalilah keindahan
Cahaya dihatiku

Ulang chorus

Oh…kasih terbayang kenangan lalu
Oh…bersamamu
Berjanji setia tak ingin berpisah
Berdua kan selamanya…..

SO thats about it… will blog again soon…… Astalavista…

With lots of love, hugs and kisses:

Zeah Brunei…

Its been a while not blogging… there are so many reason why…. but the main reason is, internet at my house selalu lagging due to the bad telephone wiring!!!… anyway… a lot telah terjadi and somehow i have the mood kan blog.. so here we go…

Life as a Teacher….

Its been almost two month of teaching… hehehe.. yeah im a teacher now and a primary school teacher…. I am so strict in class.. YEAH RIGHT!!!!….. okay at this moment… im trying too… hehe…. well all my pupils are cute and naughty… some even remind me of myself back when I was in primary school.. the naughty bits… hehehe…. hopefully not that bad ehh… I have a lot of name in school called by the pupils, Teacher Zeah, Teacher Zee, Teacher Ah, Teacher English, Teacher 5B and the one that I remember the most, Teacher yg marah sekajap…. I wonder why did they called me that…. hehehehe…. Anyway…The first day in school, I was quiet… pendiam, ayu, pemalu dan yang seangkatan dengannya…. SOmehow terbatas wah ke’gila’an ku ahh…. hehehe…. so one day masa sports day, ke’gila’an ku terkeluar and some of the teachers were surprised!!… they didnt expect i was like that…. hehehe…. then masa Pertandingan Tarian sekolah2…. another teacher didnt expect me to be so crazy and loud!!…. hahahaha….. well somehow in school… something just stop me becoming me crazy self!!!…. Thats why everyday during break i need to talk to nurul juat to let out the stress… haha… kes aku tak biasa dengan keadaan yang berdiam diri…. hahahaha…. this is the first time i feel so hard to blend in… hahaha well just have to wait for the right time….

Life as Zeah (not the teacher)

So far so good…. at least the bad news about mylife is still in the dark, but soon it wil be out in the open. How can I handle it until now? Hanya Allah yang tahu betapa hati ku hancur dan kekuatan yang ada untuk menahannya aku sendiri kurang pasti dari mana datangnya…. Just wait and see how long I can keep this up…

Love life…. nothing much to say… hahahaha…. all i know… its going just fine…

Life at home…

Ive been watching this reality show the biggest loser.. i was inspired and amazed but then still eat a lot… hehhe… at first hanya aku yang rajin wacthing this show, then my sisters pun join in… then today, we all decide to make the biggest loser Game… haha.. kakak aku, aku dan adik aku… yeah and the challenge start today and we will have a weigh in every week. This will game will take place for a month… then the prize…. the winner of the biggest loser game will win money…. well that money bukan sponsor… tapi duit yg kalah… each of us yang kalah will give $250 each…. hehehehe….. the biggest loser dapat $250,000…kami $500 je lah… tu pun kira okay apa… so starting from today… I will do what ive learned form the biggest loser… heheheh…. I know i can win sebab im the biggest…. hahaha…. kakak dan adik aku dah lah kecik… nak lawan dengan yg besar…. but then…. the percentage of weight loss mau tau kan… so cant wait to see the fisrt weigh in….. hehehehe…

Other than that….. aku sibuk dengan kerja-kerja sekolah aku… murid-murid aku suka sangat guna buku baru… its like mid year already and still buku baru… geramnya aku… sabar je lah…. hehehehe…..

Assalamualaikum…. its been long since i last blog… hehehe… hmmma lot had happen but then i cant write it all out… it will take ages….. anyway… here are some of the summaries… hehehe…

A few weeks been gone and banyak yg terjadi… got problem with a few ‘guy’ friends…. a few maksudnya adalah dlm 3-4 org…. semuanya berpunca dari sifat ‘mesra alam’. Entah lah…. aku kah yg salah?… entah lah… aku jadi takut pulak nak bercakap banyak sejak dua menjak ni… tapi sekarang im back dah… tapi takut jugak di salah ertikan sehingga ada yg tidak dapat menerima kenyataan… hanya maaf ku pinta…

Then berita sedih pilu juga ada ku terima till now i just cant talk about it… aku inda tau sampai bila and aku masih cuba untuk menerimanya dengan redha… im trying to accept the fact… im still trying… mungkin aku belum dapat menerimanya kot…. entah lah.. forget about that…

AKu dengan nasrul… our relationship is okay… still the same… ada up and down… but then just sabar saja… kalau jodoh tak ke mana… hahahaha….

Ohh… aku dah mula kerja dah… aku mengajar kat sekolah rendah yg dekat dengan rumah aku… aku satu sekoah dengan nurul… hehehe…. at this moment aku belum ada subject tertentu… so aku hanya menjadi guru ganti bagi guru2 yg keluar dan MC. So far aku jadi pendiam… sekali sekala ada jugak aku bercakap… maklum org baru.. perasaan malu tu masih ada.. lagi pun aku tengah scanning dengan siapa aku boleh mix… so far adalah 2-3 org yg aku dapat minggle…. dari 40 org guru… hehehehe…. yg lain tu aku masih tak tau…. aku tak pernah jadi pendiam macam nie… seriusly.. its killing me… thats why aku prefere menjaga class!!…. nak duduk kat staffroom tu buat aku jadi blur, blank and bored completely…. so hopefully aku akan dapat subject tuk di ajar soon…. hehehe…..

Aku baru lepas tengok Amazing Race Durham yg 2…. aku suka… hahaha… i was laughing…. pastu aku jadi sebak… sedih sebab rindu dengan kawan2 kat situ…. well a memorable experience i should say….. walau apa pun terjadi at the end of the race… i know aku bukan pemenang tapi aku adalah Juara…. hahahaha….. mesti dah kena ‘curse’ oleh one of the pserta dengan mengatakan ‘they will not win the race’… peserta tu dari dundee…. hahahahahahahahaha…… aku baru perasan pulak kau cakap macam tue.. kejam gileeerrrrrrrrrrrr…….. walau apa apa pun… aku suka lutfi.. keep it up…….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To all my friends in Bowburn… miss u guys a lot…. i dont know when will we see each other again… but im glad that we still see each other in the cyber world… cheehhhh… heheheheheheheh…

Assalamualaikum……. wah rasanya dah lama tak menaip…. dah lama jugak aku tak duk termenung depan komputer… kecuali semalam semasa mendengar lagu alih bahasa hehehe.. anyway whats been going on for the past whole week?…. last week, aku arni and zatul went to nurul’s house.. ada sambutan hari jadi anak buah nurul dan diselajurkan dengan doa selamat…. towards the end of the day.. bila semua org sudah pulang… aku arni zatul nurul and azlin dengan berbahagianya bermain Bouncer…. betapa gembiranya aku… haha… sebab masa aku kecik2 permainan benda2 macam ni tak ada… tu yg nak merasa sangat tue.. hehe… bermain dari ptg hingga ke malam… hinggalha berhujan untuk sedetik…. it was a fun day out for all of us….

The next day… monday 23hb february… National Day Brunei Darussalam dan aku di serang demam… tulah demam bermain bouncer dlm hujan tu kot… anyway…. demam aku bertambah teruk menjelang petang… dan pada malamnya semakin parah… aku tak berdaya tuk banyak bergerak… bersyukur aku sebab aku tak pernah demam teruk ni masa aku kat uk hari tue…. the next day aku pegi hospital dan aku di berikan ubat batuk, selesma and ubat tidur sekali… hehehe…. dan aku diberikan MC tuk 4 hari… wahhhh…. aku yg tengah tak kerja ni… senang2 pulak dapat MC… bila dah kerja… nak dapat MC satu hari pun tak lepas… hehehe…. so aku cakap kat doktor i dont need MC since aku tengah bercuti sakan…… so selama lebih hampir satu minggu aku dilanda demam panas yang teruk…. Now Alhamdullillah… deman dah hilang… yang tinggal hanyalah batuk dan suara yang seksi (haha bolehlah kira seksi macam ratu rock Ella… hahahahaha)……

Semenjak aku balik… aku belum lagi bersua muka dengan Nasrul… dia sibuk memanjang…. tak balik2 bandar pun… ada sekali dia balik…. tapi kitaorg tak sempat berjumpa sebab dia ada hal dan penat yang memanjang… aku sabar je lah.. nak buat macam mana dia dah sibuk… aku sakit hati?.. memanglah.. tipu lah kalau aku katakan aku tak sakit hati…. tapi ku tahankan saja… habis nak buat macam mana kan……

Sepanjang aku demam tue… aku tak bagitau pun nasrul… aku diamkan je… aku tak msg2 and tak call2 dia…. tapi yg hairannya dia pulak yg msg cari aku… bila dia msg.. aku reply lah… aku tak lah kejam sangat…  pastu aku try call dia… dia tak jawap2…. geram ada jugak… so mungkin kesibukan dia buat dia penat gila kot… so aku sabarkan hati.. tapi ada jugak aku geram segeram geramnya… sampai aku dah malas nak fikirkan.. dahlah demam.. nak fikir benda yang memeningkan kepala aku… lagilah aku demam….

Then he eventually called me up on saturday… terkejut jugak aku… hehe… ingat jugak dia kat aku…. he told me dia balik bandar…. dia nak jumpa aku tapi dah lewat sangat…. so aku cakap next time je lah…… dtg rumah tengah2 malam nanti jiran aku pulak yg bising2… hehehe…. so aku cadang jumpa on sunday je… tue dia cakap tengok dulu and dia tak janji…. masa tu aku dah sakit hati and geram gila… mana tak sakit hati… dah lama tak jumpa dari aku di uk and back here belum jumpa and dia macam buat duuhhh je… geram tau… the next day.. sunday… dia tak call dia tak msg2…. so aku yg tengah tension tu… msg nurul dgn arni nak mintak teman pegi rumah nasrul… nurul tak dapat join sebab dia menghadiri majlis perkahwinan.. hehe….

So aku dengan arni lah menuju kerumah dia… awal tu aku msg dia and told him that aku nak pegi rumah dia nak hantar barang…. dah lama barang tu dalam bilik aku… dah nak mengumpul habuk…. so aku ambil arni and terus menuju kerumahnya… otw kerumahnya aku memang berani gila…. tetiba bila dah sampai rumah dia.. aku jadi seram sejuk… dah takut pulak… hehehehe… duduk dalam kereta depan rumah dia beberapa minit… kemudian arni memberanikan diri menekan loceng pintu… aku berdiri dengan arni depan pintu… then abg dia bukak pintu dan dia panggilkan nasrul… aku ingat nasrul takde… mana lah tau dah balik ketempat kerja…….

Kerana terasa panas menunggu kat luar.. aku dengan arni masuk kereta bersejuk…. agak lama menunggu.. tiba2 dia keluar dengan senyuman dia… aku pun ambik barang dia dan bagi dia… aku nak hantar barang je… lepas tu aku dan dia bersembang… arni duduk dalam kererta bersejuk.. aku berpeluh2 kat luar sambil berbual dengan dia… dia nampak penat… and yes… he explain how much work yg perlu dia buat… aku pulak rasa bersalah sebab fikir yang bukan2…. he was sorry for not msging or calling me often… banyak jugak aku tanya dia and da jawab dengan tenang…. hehehe….. masa tu aku renung dia and he was smiling… pastu dia cakap… tengok apa…. aku dengan selamba cakap.. tengok org paling sibuk di dunia….. he was laughing… hehehe… setelah bercerita agak lama… tiba2 emak dia keluar (masa ni aku dah berdebar2 gila nie… aku tak pernah pulak buat macam nie..) dan dengan senyuman mak dia bertanya bila aku sampai.. aku cakap baru je.. walaupun dah agak lama… pastu emak dia tanya aku… sama2 belajar masa kat uni dulu ke?.. aku jawap ye… pastu mak dia tanya.. aku kerja mana… so aku explain lah aku baru habis belajar and adalah sesi temuramah…. lepas tu mak dia cakap masuk rumah dulu… aku cakap dah nak balik… but mak dia cakap… masuk dulu… aku pun cakap ok… then aku dengan arni masuk rumah and mak dia hidangkan air dan mula bercerita2…. tanya tentang pelajaran and stuff… then dia tengok aku and said something about him… aku senyum je… 2 jam lebih jugak kami kat situ… then minta izin balik sebab dah nak masuk maghrib… masa balik mak dia cakap… rajin2 lah datang… aku senyum je… he was smiling too… apalah!!!… asyik senyum2 je… then aku masuk kereta and balik…. hehe… aku masa ni di cloud 9….  kalau memaang benar jodoh aku dengan dia… adalah kan.. kalau takde… sabar jelah… but at this moment…. sebahagian besar persoalan sudah terjawab and now evrything is alright….tapi yg pasti.. dia tak suka berjanji andai dia tak pasti dapat menepati janjinya… thats what i like about him hehehe…

So at this moment… soundtrack of mylife is - Righ here Right Now - HSM3… hehehe…. tak tau pulak kenapa… lagu tue berlegar di minda ku…. and lagu faizal tahir - cuba … lagu ni pun jadi siulan ku… especially yg telah di alih bahasa…. hehehehe…..

PS- Im missing friends in Bowburn/burkenbury(kalau ejaan salah harap dimaafkan)/dundee so much and missing the hot chocolate Costa and Millie’s cookies…….hahahaha…… and UNO game dan semua game2 yg pernah ku main…

ohh lutfi…. TAR Durham dah siap edit ke… aku nak tengok lah … hahaha

Ive been tagged… for me its kinda easy… tidak perlu menggunakan daya fikir yang terlalu tinggi… hehehe… so here goes nothing… mudahan playlist aku ni memainkan lagu2 yang aku tau… hahaha

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. (u don’t have to if u choose not to ;))
6. Tag whoever tagged you so they know what you got!

DON’T CHEAT!

OPENING CREDITS:
Autumn Goodbye - Brittney Spears.. ( baru opening dah nak goodbye?.. and i really dont know aku ada lagu ni… hehe)

WAKING UP:
Lara Hati - Melly & Katon.. ( bangun tidur, hati dah lara? biar betul?.. hehe

FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL:
Do it All Over Again - Brittania High.. ( memori 1st day at school… rasanya tak nak aku do it all over again…. hahahah)

PUPPY LOVE:
Lauk ku Cukup Masin - Spider… ( Wahh… tak ada kaitan langsung….)

FIGHT SONG:

Because I am a girl - KISS… ( boleh ke jadi fight song sedangkan aku memang perempuan pun… tak reti aku maksud lagu ni… )

BREAKING UP:

Bring me to life - Evanescene… ( wah… dah break up kenalah bring back to life… hehehe.. memang kena betul lagu nie… )

PROM:
Hanya Tuhan Yang Tahu - UNIC… ( hanya Tuhan yang tahu apa rasa aku…. bagus punya lagu prom..)

LIFE IS GOOD:
Save You - Simple Plan… ( life is good if u got the chance to save people..)

DRIVING:
Can I Have This Dance - HSM3… (mungkin lagu ni yg akan ku nyanyikan kalau aku dalam kereta…tapi belum ada the cd dlm kereta aku..)

FLASHBACK:
Hanya Kau Yang Mampu - Aizat… (No cemment on this one…)

TRUE LOVE:
Everyday I Love You - Boyzone… (aiks?… aku ada lagu nie dalam playlist aku?.. hehehe… this is a true love song…)

WEDDING:
Right Here, Right Now - HSM3…. (wah… nice song… hehehe)

MOMENT OF TRIUMPH:
Proud - Brittania High…. ( Someday i’ll make you proud….)

DEATH SCENE:
Fur Elise - Vanessa Mae…. (hmmm..errkss…. tak tau nak cakap apa…)

FUNERAL SONG:
Gotta Tell you - Samantha Mumba…. ( Nak gtau apa kalau dah tak boleh cakap?… tak mengena langsung lagu nie..)

END CREDITS:
All or Nothing - O Town… (What?? this is my end credit song????…. can i change it?… ishh…. )

IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
What About Now - Daughtry …. ( hehe… maksudnya… tengok je lah sendiri.. hehe)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Menghapus jejakmu - Peter Pan…. (wah out betul nie…)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Hey Baby - No Doubt…. (hahahaha… memang lagu ni out jugak… ingat pulak aku kisah si lutfi di ganggu.. hey baby…)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Body to Body - Brittania High….. ( hmmm… boleh kah??.. hehehe)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Sepohon Kayu - Saujana…. ( That should answer the question…. walaupun hidup seribu Tahun kalau tak sembahyang apa gunanya….)

WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Keikhlasan Hati - Anuar Zain….. (yeah… ikhlaskan hati walau dalam apa keadaan jua sekalipun…)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Fool again - westlife… (Heyy… what was that suppose to mean??? hehehe…. tak menjawap atau menjawap soalan lagu nie???)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Bad Day - Alvin and The chipmunks…. ( Bad Day ??? of all the songs… bad day… hehehe… no comment)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Walk Away - Gabriella HSM3…. ( Walking away…. ohh my.. i am answering the question this time…. ishss)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Sumayyah - Hijjaz….. (No comment… mungkin tak menjawap soalan langsung)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Everytime I close my eyes - Babyface.. (Yeah.. everytime i close my eyes… i can see them…. miss them…)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I’m The Lucky One - Anuar Zain…. (Will always feel lucky and rasa bersyukur…)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Kasih Tercipta - Faizal Tahir…. (Yeah… menciptakan kasih… hehehe)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Love is A Lie - Simple Plan… (Whoaaaa…… )

WHAT WILL/DID YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Munajat Cinta - The Rock Ft Ahmad Dhani… (Bolehlah.. tak rancak tak jugak slow… at least tak tertidur sambil menari… hahahah)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Over You - Daughtry…. (wah kejamnya….)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The Way I am - Ingrid Michaelson ….. (Yes this is my hobby… betul benar lagu ni… hahahaha)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Matahari - Agnes Monica….. (takut hangus dek pancaran sinaran Matahari kot… hehehehe)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Time to say Goodbye - simple plan…. (hahaha… this song is so right… time to say good bye before my biggest secret is out!!!…hahahaha)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Usah Lepaskan - Taufik Batisah…. (apa yg tak usah tue???.. tak menjawap pertanyaan….)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Teman Terulung - Anuar Zain…. (Yeah betul…)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Seribu Tahun - Imran Ajmain….. (Ganjilnya…..)
Nak Tag sapa ehh?……… hhmmm let see…..
1. Arni….
2. Nurul….
3. Kak Nur…
4. Dija….
5. Sarvin…. (gtau kan sarvin dia dah kena tag!!!)
6. Zatull….. (rasanya dia baca ke nie ehh)
7. Lutfi… Saja je…
8. Mahadi… Saja je jugak
9. sesiapa saja yg rajin kot….

The official lyric of Im Yours Versi Melayu…….  from http://pagihari.solarstreak.com/2009/02/im-yours-malay-version-lyrics/

*Lirik versi final dari Open Project : I’m Yours
*Lirik major dari Amri dan Pingu Toha
*Turut serta: Naz, Ads4Bucks, Kak Dijah, Zeah, Fariz, Awin & the aliens

Kau tahu kau buat ku rasa begini
Jauh ku kembara tetapi ku ingin kembali
Biarpun berlabuh malam? tidak ku berhenti
Sebelum terlewat, ingin yang terbaik untukmu
Takkan siapa mampu menghalang azamku
Inilah masanya pelajari sesuatu

Takkan ku tunggu lagi
kini
aku milik kamu

Buka mata cuba kau lihat
Bukalah minda kau kan bebas
Buka hatimu dan kau temu cinta
Dengarlah muzik ini lagu juga irama
Kita semua bersama
Punya hati jiwa untuk mahu dicinta cinta

Dan, Takkan ku sangsi
Aku pasti takkan tunggu lagi
Usah ragui masa lalu
Kini aku milik kamu

Dengar bisikan hatiku
Kau kan tahu cerita

Lama benar ku membelek diri di depan cermin
Berpusing menari pabila tiada sesiapa
Melihat rentakku sendiriku tertawa
Kini aku sedar tentang kehidupan ini
Tak perlu pura-pura, jadilah diri sendiri
Itulah diriku
Dan kamu pun tahu

Takkan ku tunggu lagi
kini
Aku milik kamu

Buka mata cuba kau lihat
Bukalah minda kau kan bebas
Buka hatimu dan kau tahu luas dunia
Dengar dengar dengarlah
Ikutlah rentak kita
Inilah masa
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Last wednesday, went out with Arni, Zatul, Huda and Oyah…. activity lepak di Mall Gadong… where we eat, talk and karaoke session… it was a fun night… dah lama tak melepak kan… Nurul tak dapat datang sebab she was busy with her school works and dengan tugasan yang diberi pada nurul…membuatkan aku tertanya2 if nanti when aku kerja.. kena bagi tugasan yang melambak macam tu kah?… doa ajalah kurang dikit… hehehe…… anyway….. Arni pick me up at my place then went to gadong and meet up at the MALL… semua datang tepat pada waktunya… tiada sesi tunggu menunggu yang lama…. then pegi pood court makan sana, then sessi bergambar then sessi meluahkan perasaan melalui lagu… hehe….. then we lepak at cheesebox sambil menggunakan computer sana and kami berwebcam dengan kam, dija and supposedly sarvin tapi sarvin inda mau berwebcam… hehe.. at that time kak nur was out jumpa supervisor…. so we end up going home before 12midnight….. it was fun night out and we should do that more often!!!!… hahaha… next time tengok wayang lagi….. since at this time my sisters are buzy with the National Day practice,,, my liltle sister involved with the choir and she is one of the jurulatih… I hardly see her… kecuali pagi2 since aku yg hantar dia pegi skolah.. pegi kul 6 pagi then dia balik pukul 10 kadang2 11 malam… well maybe after Naional Day.. then dapat lepak2…… my older sister pun buzy… her company suruh masuk kelas malam, well her company paid for it… its the ACCA blabla thing… aku pun tak tau apa kebendanya… hehehe…. then sometimes dia ada band practice with her band.. she’s the lead singer… and she told me by next week she will be buzy doingt shows… so tinggallah aku dirumah… tukang makan… tukang kacau mak and bapak aku… tukang bising2 kat rumah… tukang tengok tv… and bila malam je aku dah mula ajak my nephew belajar and bermain games…… hehehe…

The other day aku ajak my sister main game tema lagu…. perlawanan yang senget lah… satu tema tu boleh berpuluh lagu yg keluar… geram pulak aku… bila aku rasa aku nak menang… ada aja lagu yg keluar dari otak dorang… geram… but then aku menang jugak walau sekali… hahaha….

Ohh… last saturday, surat penempatan aku from MOE dah siap, so aku pun terus hantar the letter ke Jabatan sekolah2 and terus masuk untuk di interview… dengan berbekalkan doa dan semangat seorang guru… Alhamdullilah… semuanya berjalan lancar…. then pengarah tersebut tanya aku if aku ada soalan.. aku pun tanya bila akan mendapat surat lantikan tersebut… and he said within a week.. So mudahan rezeki ku cepat sampai.. AMIN….

What else… of the other day i was watching this reality tv shows one in a million… believe it or not masa dorang announced the top 12… aku tiba2 bersuara… lawa lagi suara lutfi…. seriously…. i bet if this year he entered this OIM, gerenti dia dapat masuk… aku bengang lah how dorang pilih orang2 yang masuk nie…. yang aku dengan kakak aku rasa lawa.. tak masuk… alasan tak penampilan dorang ala tujuhpulahan atau lapanpuluhan… apa kes?…. imej boleh di ubah lah…. apa dah… hehehe…

Then today nothing much happen… hantar adik aku pegi latihan koir… then aku lepak dengan kakak aku tengok movie korea…. sedih pulak cerita tue… then baru-baru ni video clip im yours versi melayu pulak keluar… aku tak expect clip tu macam tue… mengembalikan nostalgia pulak aku tengok… main UNO lepas tu ada sesi menari…. the good old days… sedar tak sedar… aku menangis tengok clip tue.. menanis sambil ketawa…. rindunya aku pada kawan2 aku yg sedang berjuang di Durham…. Hopefully one day all of us akan berkumpul and we will lepak and makan ayam golek dija lagi… hehehe…

So thats about it…. soundtrack of the day…. lagu ‘IM YOURS VERSI MELAYU”… belum ada official lyric lagi… kalau dah ada.. will post it.. insyaAllah…

ohh… a little something for my friends… in here and there (you know who u are people….)

You’ve been there through the rough and tough
and I’ve now realized just how much
you’ve all come to mean to me
you’re now all a part of me
Relationships been up and down
Conversations round and round
Hitting my head against a wall
and you’ve been there through it all
Not only when I need an ear
or to get me through the things I fear
but you change my mood, my day, my night
You turn the dull into the bright
Each and everyone of you have things that I admire
I can be myself and hope all of you inspire
The stories, the quirks and embarrassing tales
you make me laugh if all else fails
I have no need to run or hide
when I have you, all on my side
You may think “does she mean me?”
and yes I do for ALL WHO SEE
for all of you are very dear to me
even those that are far away from me
You may have only said one word
but I’m sure there’s more to be heard
and so I’m hear, if you need an ear,
to get you through the rough and tough
when the worlds caved in and you’ve had enough
We will laugh, get angry, live and learn
share dreams and hopes, love and yearn
with every day that passes by
with every star, sun and moonlight sky
I thank you each and everyone of you
for being here to get me through

In Brunei:

Zeah…

So… life as usual… masih dengan routine harian… hehehe… well this morning went to the MOE with Arni… sudah seminggu terperap di rumah.. akhirnya kami keluar juga…. Dengan bacaan yang betul dan niat yang baik… everything went well… Alhamdullilah…. so just waiting for any answers, feedback and conclusion… hehehe…. Then sukat Brunei… yeah… we went for window shopping and Arni beli kain… and aku?… takde pulak nak membeli belah… sebab tak ada yang memikat hati… so after all the window shopping…aku hantar Arni balik and i went home… sampai rumah my nephew tanya aku dari mana…. he thought I went back UK…and he said he was worried… hehehe… dia terlalu banyak mendengar berita mengenai cuaca in UK..so i told him i wont be going there this time but will be going there in the near future.. InsyaAllah….

 

What else… ohh two days ago… he called… we talk for hours… macam cerita tak mau nak habis…. keep on talking about his work, life and all sort of stuff. After a few hours… i told him that itys getting late and he need his rest… since he will be teaching and stuff… kesian juga if tak cukup rehat and sleep… Then today i called him…. we spend hours on the phone too…. i cant remember what we talk about but it was full of laughter and a fun conversation….ada jugak kisah2 loyar buruk dia…. then after a few hours… somehow i ask him a question…. tiba2 dia diam… i felt weird…. napa dia diam? Apa salahkah soalan aku tue?.. AKu tak rasa salah pun… but then aku tak reti pulak nak memahami apa maksud diamnya itu… ~lelaki~~… then he ask me what im doing tomorrow… i said im doing nothing… then dia diam… somehow i got the sign that it was time to hangup.. so i told him u better rest.. tommorrow is his buzy day… morning teaching, menghadiri bengkel petang, and malam mengajar kelas malam…. so we said our goodbyes and hang up…. and now i feel weird and somehing is a miss… he is making me confuse with this… so confused and suddenly my heart bruised….. tried to think positive cause I believe in my feeling…. but then kalau aku sorang aja yang believe… worth it kah itu?……I dont know… kami belum ada pertemuan lagi… he is buzy and i know that… time2 macam ni dengan perubahan sistem pendidikan… he will be occupied with his work.. so aku tak pulak memaksa… coz somehow i understand him… or mungkin aku memahami mereka yg workaholic since i used to be a workaholic myself… hehehe… so bila kami kan jumpa?… maybe tunggu cuti sekolah kot… which is in March… hmmm… well its next month… tak lama lah tue.. unless masih busy jugak… so tak tau lah bila……

So here’s the soundtrack of mylife at this moment…

 
Usahku menepis rasa rindu yang mendera jiwa
Kau buat aku tersiksa
Bayangan trus menghampiri, kemanapun kucoba pergi
Dimana harus sembunyi
Lemahku lemah tak berdaya

Salahkah bila ku tak henti mengharapkannya
Meskipun akhirnya ku tahu dia hanya membuatku terluka
Bayangan trus menghampiri, kemanapun kucoba pergi

Adakah dia peduli
Lemahku lemah tak berdaya
Salahkah bila ku tak henti mengharapkannya
Meskipun akhirnya ku tahu dia hanya membuatku terluka

hehehehe….. kalau tak ada lagu tak sah…. or maybe my all time soundtrack of my life ‘ALL OR NOTHING’ is still the one that exactly describe my love life… i wont post the lyric here since i did post it before…. aiyahh… hmm… teringin pulak nak buat poem…

Yeah yeah (dalam intonasi yg menyindir diri sendiri)… hehehehe… now aku dah terasa symptom2 jetleg…. baru hari ni ada terasa jetleg… macam mana itu? Dah nak 6 hari aku balik sini.. for the past days okey je… but now… i can sense that my eyes get sleepy waktu pagi2 kat sini (Brunei)… then tengah malam2 macam ni pulak mata aku segar bugar…. berapa lama eh jetleg?… Inilah rasanya jetleg ehh…. aku tarik balik kata2 ku dalam blog lepas yg mengatakan mata aku ni mengerti waktu malam… mungkin 6 hari kebelakangan ini aku penat kot?… tu yg tidur dan bangun on time… sekarang ni… baring2 atas katil langsung tak tidur… penat je baring2… haha… akhirnya aku end up duduk depan tv… then blogging…. ohh baru jua habis mengkongsikan bersama idea dalam penterjemahan lagu… hehehe…. entah kena terima atau tidak… aku tak tau… hehehe… anyway tu je lah buat kali ini…

Dari yg tengah jetleg..

Zeah

Its been like four days back in Brunei… Nothing much happened…. since monday i became officially menjadi pemandu menghantar dan mengambil adik pegi kerja and anak buah pegi school… hehehe…… hey at least i have something to do to make my day soo buzy …. anyway… what did i do in the past 4 days…. sunday sampai airport and terus balik rumah and bermain dengan anak2 buah yang sedang membesar… 9 orang semuanya and berkumpul di rumah…. bagai kapal pecah aku melihat mereka mengerjakan ruang tamu dan aku lah budak yang paling sibuk melayan karenah masing2… hahaha…. monday went to the MOE tuk melaporkan diri…. then Tuesday going for an interview… interview memohon Perumahan…. Then today…. been doing nothing except for watching TV, read books, bermain sama kucing and bermain dengan anak buah… so my days was filled with fun activities (yeah right…) hehe… then tadi aku mula berkaraoke… yeah been singing since there was nothing to do…. anak buah datang pagi je… petang dia dah balik… hehe… mak aku pulak cakap… dah mula lah rumah ni bising…. hehehe…

Then,,, thats about it… nak browsing2.. internet connection kat sini terlalu lah cepat… hinggakan nak dengar lagu from youtube pun mengambil masa satu jam… cepat sangat lah tue kan….  sanggup aku tunggu sebab nak dengar lagu malay version of love story…. hehe…. ~ kita masih muda bila bertemu… ku tutup mata dan memori itu pun bermula…..~

Ohh that remind me to post soundtrack of my life for the time being… not the malay version of love story… but another song…. here’s the lyric…

Out of Reach - Gabrielle

Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

Chorus
So confused
My heart’s screws
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

Verse 2
Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

Chorus
But I’m
So confused
My heart’s screws
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

Bridge
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you

Chorus
And now I’m
So confused
My heart’s screws
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

Should i explain or you guys can understand what it means? or just let it be…. since life is short for something like this…. there’s a song that meant to much for me.. a part of the lyrics…..

Stop breaking your heart
Youre making it hard on you
Dont drive in reverse
You’ve been through the worst
Put it behind you

This is a song for
The broken hearted
The disappointed ones

If you hear me
Then this one’s for you
Is it really worth holding on to

So thats about it for now… if the connection is better or ada story2 that i wanna share.. will blog it here… hehehe…. adios people…

Zeah